After leaving one worksite and moving to another has given me a chance to think about what has happened over the past few months at the old place. This has also got me thinking about what I want for my future.

Ever since I got to my old worksite, I couldn’t do right for doing wrong. I was told I wasn’t quick enough or wasn’t doing things right-but the right thing kept shifting so I couldn’t get it right. This has lead to me lose confidence in my abilities and start to lose interest in working in the horticulture industry. There was no support there from the boss (who seems to have given up herself as she is leaving), it was just me that was the problem.

Now I’m in my new spot, the work is itself rather boring, mainly because I’ve been doing the hedging and weeding for too long without anything to break it up. Here , though, I don’t have the pressure of doing the right thing when the client will swing it round to something else later on.

Now the important question is what have I learnt? First and foremost, I am not bad at my job. I wasn’t when I went to the old workplace, and I’m not now. It’s a bad state of affairs when the client throws a hissy fit for you doing your job according to how you have been trained.

Next is the fact that I need to move on to a different job. Sometimes you need to move to a completely new company to blow away the cobwebs and nonsense caught up in them. Now is that time.

I do want to work for myself eventually, but I’m at a point where I can’t leave paid employment and I don’t have the time around being employed and studying to sort that out properly. This is just how it is to a point.

This point is that we all have a tolerance for other people’s nonsense and my limit is near its end. How long I will last before getting a new job is anyone’s guess!

Another thing that I will bring up is the fact that this job is physically really tough. Part of my problem recently has been that I have been told to get a move on and work a lot quicker but also look after myself. I’m on the wrong side of 35 and the two do not go together-I have done a reasonable amount of work to not be broken by the end of the day.

On the positive side, I do not have the particular stress of my old workplace any more. That will improve my life immensely. Where I end up from here is a little more vague at the moment but any step in the right direction is a good one.